Suddenly I See

The words of this song popped in my head just now, as I was thinking of writing my most recent week's post.

I didn't remember them all, so I looked them up, and put them down.

And they are striking me as really poignant.

Over the past month or so I've had a number of women tell me really sweet things about what my blog means to them. And I've not stopped being amazed that they would even take interest in what I have to say, lead alone find it meaningful for them. 

(Thank you, ladies, for taking the time to tell me so. Seriously it means a lot to me. And its changing parts of me.)

I'm starting to feel like I've turned a big corner, in my heart, during this pregnancy. The fear is starting to fade, and a peace is starting to pervade.

And in that peace I'm starting to feel a calling to more.

I haven't put my finger on it yet, what exactly I'm feeling pulled towards...but its something.

Something for others.

Something for hearts that need it.

Something for aches.

Something for longings.

Something for hope.

Something for healing. 

And in that I feel happy.

I want to have something to give.

"Suddenly I See"
 KT Tunstall

Her face is a map of the world
...You can see she's a beautiful girl
...And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see 
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see 
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
...You can hear she's a beautiful girl
...She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see 
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see 
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see
Why the hell it means so much to me